Grateful

So, my fun-filled weekend has come to an end, but I'm not dreading going back to work a whole lot.. I need the structure, it's good for me.

The NIN/JA tour show was absolutely magnificent. I seriously can't even find the perfect words to describe it. It met my expectations and more.
Nothing beats feeling free in the music, singing along, dancing in your own little personal space bubble, walking barefoot up a dewy grassy hill, sweat (yes, sweat), hanging with fun people, one of those being your awesome husband.
I'm lucky.


The songs that Nine Inch Nails played and the range of emotion they are able to pull me through was intense. I was so, so glad that he put 'Something I Can Never Have' on the set list. I got so lost in that one, so I had to kind of climb my way back to reality.

(LYRICS)
I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me
In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.
Come on tell me
I just want something I can never have

Jane's Addiction's backdrop intro was rad. I desperately wanted to get a good picture of the hot and shirtless Dave Navarro but I didn't manage. The side screens weren't showing up well on camera. But I did SEE him.. and it was sweet. Ha. Jane's did a nice show as well. We left about 3/4 through their set.

Not to mention, I ran into and got my photo with Margaret Cho. ;)

If you're interested in seeing pictures from the show, I've posted a set on my Flickr account. Feel free to add me.

I think there's another rock show in my future.. I'll have to update when I find out for sure.
On the lawn with the fans, I am truly in my element. One group of people together to enjoy something they love.

It's gorgeous, really.

Happy 1st of May

I am off work today and am taking Drake to the Aviation Museum this morning. We're both pretty excited. He assures me that Army men will be there.

I had a nice moment of peace yesterday on my work break. I'm trying to be aware, and nature seems to make that the least difficult. I was sitting in my car around 10 am, the temperature was still nice, had my windows down. The clouds looked like marshmallows and were moving across the sky with such grace. I sat and watched for a number of minutes. The wind was cooling my face, I was relaxed, and the moment in time was really appreciated. I had to record the clouds with my cell phone --


It is rewarding to be aware.

music makes my heart go thump

Things to look forward to are vital to my mental health.

Being the fortunate woman I am, I have a few on my list. I thought I should point them out.

This upcoming Monday, I'm going to see Meiko live at The Hummingbird downtown. It's only a $10 ticket! That makes the joy that much brighter. I've never been to this venue, but it seems low-key and chill. I am very much looking forward to sipping a drink and hearing some acoustic and a enjoying a pretty girl with a pretty voice.

On Mother's Day, (hello, special awesome treat for me) Kenneth and I, along with some friends, are going to Atlanta to see Nine Inch Nails on their NINJA Tour, also headlining Jane's Addiction. I'm getting a sweet deal here. I've been a NIN fan for years, and one of my dying wishes is to see a live show (I'll get to more of those dying live show wishes later), and here it is, opportunity followed with my utmost glee.

If Kenneth and I play our financial cards right, another Summer musical shenanigan may be in our future. That being the Mayhem Festival 09. I'm in it for Marilyn Manson, truth be told. I don't mind seeing Slayer, though. No complaints here. If we go, we're going to end up with lawn tickets (less expensive) and.. will have to set up baby sitting arrangements with my mother-in-law.

Sigh. I am thankful for the live music coming my way. It fulfills me in a way nothing else can.

oh, the humans.

We're all in this world just trying to get through. We are trying to form relationships the best we know how. Day to day, hour to hour. It can be daunting. I try to see the good in people. But, they make it difficult.

And confrontation is the worst. I try to avoid it it at all cost.

Life so simply boils down to people, language, THINKING before we speak? Emotional regulation. Regulation. Regulation.
Tact?
Yes, all of the above.

silly cat

I was reading through my archives, and hot damn did I used to have a lot to say. I'm sure I still do, I think I'm just more tired and blank.
I don't want to be blank!

My kitty, Hocus, has started to climb on TOP of the TV and to lay and stare around the room. I got a picture:


I decided to title this "I Can Haz the Remotes?"
Hahahaha.
When it's not Drake doing something silly and/or crazy, it's Hocus. Never ending amusement, I swear.

I'm....

pregnant. With twins.




or
April Fools Day.

:D Had to, even though I probably fooled NO one.

I need to re-add all of my links, I haven't forgotten any of my daily reads. I just changed my layout the other day and never got around to adjusting links.

Here I sit, at my computer, with ear plugs in my ears. Don't ask.